Sometimes I feel like being an idealist is the wrong choice, I feel like I am out of the world, no one else feels like they can survive if you keep your truest faith. Is there any world which right for idealistic like me?

I just feel that we don't only mean to be live in this earth just to make money, fulfilling our belly and furthermore to get people attention or pride. Meanwhile, those who sacrifice their ego and following their heart to make the world be a better place to live, are suffering, they earn little, sometimes the good deeds even just for free. Sometimes they were being talked like people who don't have a stable job. Why do we have to live people's expectation? can we just choose our own path without manipulating the games?

I once have a friend who quit from a prestige company, he said that it is no use to make rich the company which already rich, why don't we make ourself useful to the society which needs our help, by empowering other people, for example, right?

I feel the same way at present. I feel like I don't belong here. The company culture is a way too different from my soul. Why am I forced to fake all the things just to satisfy the customer? I don't like either if I were them and I receive goods with manipulating thing in it.